Sorry for no posts again. I really need to start writing in this blog often. But it doesn’t mean nothing is happening. There were a lot of things I wasn’t able to share which I now regret. As the song says, “If only I could turn back time…” hehehe!
Anyway, this song was my family’s theme song last week.
You’ll never guess what happened.
It started when we visited my mom. I had this sudden idea for Z to stay with her for a week. It hasn’t happened before so I was surprised when Z agreed. So the following week, we dropped him there with one week worth of clothing, said our goodbyes and we went home.
Oopps, before we went away pala Zack wasn’t too happy when he finally realized we were leaving his brother behind. We were already outside ready to go inside the car when I told him his brother was staying. Even at two years old, he realized right away that was not a good thing. So he tried to drag his brother towards the car. When his Dad started the car he was torn between being left behind and trying to drag his brother so he started crying. I admit we were laughing so hard at this point because of Zack’s dilemma. Z even teased him more by pretending to ride in the car and when he was already calm Z would suddenly jump out and get Zack’s attention. Of course, the little one would start to cry once again. Then we would all laugh.
But when we were already on our way home, guess who started missing Z the most?
By that time Zack was already calm and happy and have forgotten about his Kuya. But inside the car the silence was deafening. It was Ate Rose who broke the silence when she blurted out, “Ang tahimik. Nakakamiss si Z!” At that point there was already an ache in my heart and I was questioning whether I was mad to suggest that he be left behind.
To make the story short, we terribly missed him over the week. The house was so lonely. With no one tinkering with the LP all the time the house was so quiet without Z. I then had an epiphany of what will happen in the future when the kids are no longer living with us. When it’s just me and hubby in the house. I admit I have been guilty over the past months of not spending time with the kids. After all I had uprooted my family in order to start our online business so the past months I had the pressure to sell. I have been away at the store most days trying to learn everything I can and at night when I come home I’m too tired to do anything. But after having a glimpse of what the “future” will bring I now realize that the children are still the most important.
I don’t want to sing the tune, “If only I could turn back time” by the time we are old and wrinkled so even though it’s hard I am more determined than ever to manage my time better and make my family my priority.
Now Z is back in the house. Hurray! Next time I will think twice before making him go on vacation alone.